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Are You Holding Yourself Prisoner?

Updated: Sep 25, 2020

Pumpkin spice reminds me of the fall. Affectionately, I call fall “Pumpkin Spice” season. It's when the season starts to change; the morning air feels colder and crisper, Halloween stores are popping up, and the leaves on the trees begin to turn. The summer energy slows and things start to feel cozy.

Pumpkin spice season reminds me that we are coming into a time of reflection and slowness, which is a time for releasing. Whenever I think about what I need to release, this story often pops into my awareness.

A finely dressed man notices a woman talking to a group, and he moves closer to listen. However, he doesn’t necessarily hear what she is saying because he is mesmerized and drawn to her energy.

He could feel her sovereignty and confidence. He notices she has a sword stuck in the ground in front of her to indicate that she is standing in her power and authority.

As she notices him, their eyes meet, and he looks away. She pulls the sword out from the ground and hands it to the man saying, “This sword will cut through ANYTHING! It is yours to use and to cut through any of your excuses. Go and find your truth.”

He takes the sword back to his room and sits with it. He can feel the possibilities, but he can also feel the fear polarizing him. He feels like he is sitting on a precipice trying to decide what to do.

The fear of letting go of the pain, the heartache, and the trauma was too much for him. He thought to himself, “If I let go of my pain, trauma, and heartache, then who will I be?” So the next day, he handed the sword back to the woman, said thank you, and walked away.